So I just recently turned 39, took stock of my life
Have traveled the world a few times, married a beautiful Iowa Cheerleader… the one that stunts and gets tossed high into the air, have a beautiful, smart and energetic 7 year old daughter who is my world.
I’ve lived a full life. Truly have. Wined and dined dignitaries, movie stars, seen the emerald green water of the Indian Ocean from jumping out of a moving chopper, seen lightning in water, seen a sky so full of stars there is more white than black
etc
I look at all of that and I still feel like an abject failure. Is this that midlife bullshit?
Why am I so stressed out that I don’t sleep for days? Or that I almost find no happiness in things I used to love to do? My hobbies etc
My job is an absolute hell scape right as a company wise re org is underway and I lost my most dependable supervisor
Im trying to be a strong mother****er about it but it’s wearing me down and I’m really struggling to be anything but this stressed out asshole I’ve become
Any thoughts of this?
Blast away, I probably sound like a whiny bitch anyways
Have traveled the world a few times, married a beautiful Iowa Cheerleader… the one that stunts and gets tossed high into the air, have a beautiful, smart and energetic 7 year old daughter who is my world.
I’ve lived a full life. Truly have. Wined and dined dignitaries, movie stars, seen the emerald green water of the Indian Ocean from jumping out of a moving chopper, seen lightning in water, seen a sky so full of stars there is more white than black
etc
I look at all of that and I still feel like an abject failure. Is this that midlife bullshit?
Why am I so stressed out that I don’t sleep for days? Or that I almost find no happiness in things I used to love to do? My hobbies etc
My job is an absolute hell scape right as a company wise re org is underway and I lost my most dependable supervisor
Im trying to be a strong mother****er about it but it’s wearing me down and I’m really struggling to be anything but this stressed out asshole I’ve become
Any thoughts of this?
Blast away, I probably sound like a whiny bitch anyways
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